have had one of the worst years in a long time.Between my hubby in and out of hospital and fighting the Courts so we can see our little niece.its too long of a story but my heart was shatted and broken. I didn't think I would feel so lonely and sad. my God son hung himself from the cloths line as I was on my way to bring him home. My life was so out of controll I didn't know what to do..On more tablets but I think I am slowly getting there.
I have done no crafts or painting just so not into it. I just closed my craft room door and cried. Have cried every day for such a long time. Have fights with my sister and we have never fought, its makes me cranky when she changes the rules.Put on 12 kilos and feel so fat.
I am trying very hard to start crafting but every time I start I get these funny head spins and lose all interest in everything.
I keep asking God to help me, I know that He is but it seems like He isn't.
Having trouble not being a Nana, all I ever wanted to be was a Mum but my 2 sweet little ones are in Heaven. All my friends are Nana's now and I am not and it makes me so sad and it makes me cranky too. There are so many women are the worst mums and dads and their have babies, me I think I am a good person and I cant have any and it really does my head in...
I know I have to pull my finger out and do stuff but its not in me anymore.
Hope to start doing crafts, painting and smiling real soon.
thank you for coming to read my blog.
good night now and sweet dreams.
love from Glenda. xoxoxoxoxoxo
